Black, Crack and Hat

Hello SLudes. Ok, Ok, I admit I missed the place. There are certain elements of SL that I missed very much so after some thought in the aftermath of an amazing world trip, I’m dipping my toe in the SLwim water and have returned for a while. There’s defo room for us all in Linden Land and having had a lovely long break that allowed some clarity to seep in, I felt a yearning to return as an ‘appreciator’ of the talented people who create content.

SL is definitely looking prettier to me than ever before. Sneak peeking at my favorite blogs and mags; I can see vast improvements in a range of products.

I don’t have any desire to model in SL anymore nor involve myself in any controversy but I love to shop, explore, write and take pictures so why not indulge myself in these pursuits and bring the old blog back to life. I at last found what it was about SL that made it fun and for me it wasn’t necessarily about forming connections or networks but was entirely centered on visual stimulation. Don’t get me wrong, I love the friends I made but my RL is so bloody full-on that SL afforded me some sanctuary and a place to let my imagination run wild.

I’ve snuck back into SL without anyone really knowing, purchased some land, which I had never done before, created a beautiful place of my own to enjoy and now feel like I have a base in SL that I control.

Starting with a bare piece of sandy land and no experience or talent in terraforming, I spent days flying here and there trying to find a house with the right amount of prims, furniture, water, effects, tree’s etc that I could fit on within my prim allowance. I swear I’ve had as much fun as when decorating my RL houses. I do need the help of a pro in smoothing out some of the rough edges so to speak but that will come. Overall I’m totally rapt with my new place and inspired to get out there and seek out new and exciting things people are making. Thanks to Scarlet Creative designer, Charlotte Bartlett, for putting together such a wonderful house as the ‘Let Me Hang Art’ series. Yes I’ve lost 4 doors into my lost and found folder and I’m too scared to re-rezz it again but give me time and I’ll work it out. Great house, great designer.



So here I am in my debut dress in basic black. The trademark hat is there too. Pairing LeeZu and AnaLee Balut, two institutions in SL, have created a sleek, dramatic and sexy look that showcases the derriere, my favorite part of the body.





Hair: Zoe by Maitreya in Natural Blond.
Eyes: Expressive Eyes by Nany Merlin in green.
Skin: Ganesha in Quartz by The Obscene (Genie makeup)
Shape: Nadia by Alady
Dress: Loren by LeeZu
Hat: Cancan by AnaLee Balut
Earrings/necklace: Modern Anch from GBL created by Babyhoney Bailey.
Back tattoo: Designed by Carmilla Mirabeau from Isle's Ink at Miles Island

Life is for SLiving.

SL - It's addictive

Who wouldn't want to be beautiful? Who wouldn't want to have perfect features, a to-die-for figure and the ability to walk in impossibly high heels no matter the ground surface? Well I sure put my hand up to that.

Two things attracted me and kept me in SL since October 2007. These were the wonderful people I met and my avatar. The opportunity to create the perfect virtual person. To have the hair I dreamed of, wear the clothes I coveted and to unashamedly swan around SL showing it all off. That was heaps of fun for the longest time but then I got bored. So now as I phase out of SL spending no time in-world, I wonder why I can't cut it out of my life completely. I still enjoy reading the feeds and seeing what new things have been created for residents.

I do feel a strong affinity with SL players and sometimes feel a little envious of the new residents who have it all in front of them to discover. I just wish I'd had some artistic talent to offer that would have given the game more depth and interest for me. I've decided I will never sink any more RL $'s into the game so if I do venture in it will only be to appreciate the beautiful things you guys have created.

I still can't give my massive wardrobe and other stuff away just yet. I'm not ready to say goodbye to Chalice's face right now. So as I charge into the sunset of the Middle East, Greece, Croatia, Turkey, Italy or Jordan (and other places) on my upcoming RL adventure, I hope I'll be back to keep enjoying the wonderful world that is SL, if only to remind myself that it can be a very healing, supportive place if used for good, not evil. It is addictive and that's understandable...in a flash you can be anyone and anywhere your heart desires.

I have learned a valuable lesson playing SL. All I have control of is what I say and do. Other people have to walk their own path and be accountable for their actions. Sounds twee I know but I have often grappled with being reactive rather than proactive which has often come out in me opening my mouth when I shouldn't. I'm so chillaxed lately, I have to take my blood-pressure to make sure I'm here.

See ya peeps and could someone please try and get rid of those bloody horrible cankles on avatar's. They're so ugly and need to go. Moody's are sensational but can only do so much to make the SL foot look awesome.

Hmmmm I'm sorry AGAIN.

Why did I just resurrect 'Chalice In Wonderland' from the dead blogger's graveyard? I swear I can't believe I just did that.

OK...let me analyze this a moment.

• Retired from SL check
• Not been back in save to check that my stuff had been returned...no interaction check
• No playing around on alt's check
• A little lurking around blogs but no commenting and the amount of lurking reduced steadily over time check
• No withdrawal symptoms just an occasional desire to see what was going down check

In all honesty, I have thought about SL. Sometimes a lot, sometimes a little. I hope that's normal given the amount of time I had been involved in it. I think it is. That said, I didn't like the way I left. I didn't like the way I did it. I didn't like what I said. I think that who I am as a person was for the most part reflected in my in-world interactions with people but toward the end something in me snapped.

This post is really not for anyone but me. It's cathartic to at least put my thoughts down on here and say what I wished I had said immediately after my departure. Is it important to anyone but me? Absolutely not. No-one will care which is fine and right and normal. In fact, no-one will remember any of the mini-drama at the time and given a day in SL is a year in RL, no-one will even know who I am...haha.

First of all, I want to apologise to Iris Searle of SCD fame. I was absolutely wrong to call her names and I had no business even going on her blog bagging her. IRIS I'M SORRY. Now Iris will in all likelihood never read this and somehow I get the impression my outburst was like water off a duckies back to her. She's had people dig at her before and unlike me, she's probably far too philosophical to let it bother her but it really bothered me. I just shouldn't have done it, plain and simple. Wrong, wrong, wrong on my part.

Dancien, in responding to my initial post, made a good point I guess. SCD is just another facet to this crazy on-line environment. Of course there is a place for nasty blogs, nice blogs, drama laden blogs, crazy blogs, boring blogs, expose' blogs, fluffy blogs and informative blogs blah blah. It's like a menu and you just pick what you feel like, you don't have to eat everything.

I'm not going back in-world to play around as I did but at the same time, I'm not deleting my account...JUST YET ANYWAY. There is definitely a strong pull associated with this game and I can't pretend I didn't have lots of fun and got to do things that in RL I'd love to do. I'm heading off on an amazing world trip that I organized with a suitcase full of gorgeous clothes, money in the bank and a head'n'heart clear of crap to fill up on wonderful experiences. I swear I don't think I would have had the clarity to do all this if I had been in SL. I know there are people far more focused and clear headed than me able to marry the two lives but for me it was becoming one or the other. If I struggled, surely other people have and do also. I think that is the thing that has been niggling away at me. That I let SL become so much more than it actually is. I just wanted to say it...out loud. Someone else might feel the same and it's ok. Just don't let it overwhelm the life you can have if you let SL be what it is...just something to do when LIFE lets you.

It's strange that the very thing that drove me away is what now, after the benefit of time, I love about SL. All the weirdo's, of which I include myself, mulling around in that micro-world just putting it out there. But there is danger and I wanted to say one last thing. It's something that I forgot about in my own SL experience and it dawned on me that I saw a lot of this with people I met.

So I will just keep CIW going for a bit longer. Kill me, lick me, hate me, love me....I am who I am and I'm just doin' my thang.

*When SL crawls in to your dreams or you start seeing SL in your RL, take a break.
*If a real person walks into the room when you're in-world and it annoys you, take stock.
*If the phone rings or someones at the door and you don't answer it, why?
*If you are hungry or thirsty sitting at the computer but you don't attend to your basic needs, that's ridiculous.
*If you start looking after your avatar better than you look after yourself, look in the mirror and say "I love you".
*If you prefer to hug a pixelated image instead of a flesh and blood person, switch off the computer and disconnect from your ISP for a while.

These things are not normal, healthy or conducive to a happy life.

Just sayin.......